half-crazy

another blurb blog, maybe just a bit longer. alot has happened this week i realized, and there were alot of ups and downs to it. don't want to go into much detail onto what happened, so i'll just get down to the nitty-gritty of it:

friday, great practice. i found it productive and we all bonded well, we also got free food from the community centre so we all bonded a bit longer than usual. saturday was greg's surprise birthday, it all went well, he was surprised by everyone at queens quay and he seemed really happy about it. drama happened later on in the evening, ill get into that later. today was camp training! it was great to meet the service team, they all seem like they'll do so well. all-in-all, pretty productive.

okay, so here's what's up. so intense situations emerge, and some major stress happens for everyone. first off, i'd like to say that i'm very happy, to say the least, that everyone is safe and together. this is what's more important.

um, so lets just say, that many people saw the worst of me. let's just say i'm a force to fuck with when i'm really mad. let's just say that over the years i, the rarely angered trisha, have developed an otherwise rare rage blackout-esque persona. and let's just say me and the person i love the most, the MOST, had let things get a bit out of hand and hectic.

so okay. you should all know how stupid i get, how stupid we get in fights. whenever a couple fights, isn't 90% of the time, it's over something stupid? so i got caught up in the heat, and you know, i kinda got fed up with how stupid the things me and he fight over are. we say some stupid shit, yeah, and you know what, being who he is and i am and knowing that about each other, we both never usually take it to heart. its hurt, it's pain, it has a voice of it's own, and what ever it says, no matter how stupid or how not true it is, it is a reflection on how we feel. and what i felt on saturday, you know what? its how i felt inside.

i don't really know the point of this entry, honestly, but let's just say that i love greg so much, yes i may say stupid shit to him and vice versa. our fights get fuckin' intense to be completely honest with you. it's not because we hate each other or anything, but its our flaw we need to work on and because we love each other so much, we'll work on that together. we'd rather be together than let something like our temper get in the way. relationships are sacrifice and what we're trying to sacrifice is our pride. love conquers all, afterall.

that's it. sorry if it gets confusing along the way of this entry.

xoxo trisha